I am working on my second book, **This Is Me** It is a follow up, a natural progression, from my first book, This Isn’t Me, which I finished and published three months ago That book was my honest account of my 27 years of addiction to both drugs and alcohol, my sudden easy, recovery when I thought all was lost and my relationship with my son both during that time and now. I wrote it to help my son heal, as an apology and because I just had to.
It has become such an unexpected success. It is as though by writing my story, by exposing my life, I had given ‘permission’ to others to break their self-imposed silence on a subject that is causing them huge pain. By admitting the devastation of my own battles, I opened up a dialogue on the despair, confusion, hopelessness and pain that all alcoholics feel. Often to those who are free from addiction, the drinker seems unaware or uncaring of the hurt they are causing. Believe me we rarely are. Most of us absolutely know but feel completely and hopelessy trapped in our addiction.
I wish I could bottle what I now know and hand it out as a gift to anyone who is suffering – although most of us don’t want any more ‘bottles’ in our lives. But I can’t. There are not magic potions to end addiction, only the addict can do that. However, what I can do, in response to all those who write and ask “Well done you, but what next? How can I get sober? and How do you go forward?”, is write another book, in which I share what I absolutely know to be the truth about my addictions and recovery.
In *This Is Me* I have written, in the simplest possible terms how I came to be me, not a ‘new’ me, but the real me, and how I stay me. I will give you a snap shot of where I am now, and how life is for me on the other side of booze, as well as the strategies and routines, including self-care and nutritionally that enable me to enjoy the quality of life that we all deserve. I am not a psychologist, there is no science in this book, I write as an addict. An addict set free, an addict now sober.
Please believe me when I say that life doesn’t have to be that way. I live a life with my son I could only ever have dreamed of for so many painful years, and I live it every, single, sober day. xxx